Motherhood

I saw parents struggle with their children this afternoon during high tea. The children were rolling on the floor, crossing safe distancing boundaries (both legal and potentially personal ones too lmao) and making a lot of noise. None of this bothered me, I find myself more tolerant towards such things unless the children are evidently misbehaving and not - behaving like children. 

The parents took it all in good stride. They never raised their voices, didn't appear to be frustrated that the kids were being naughty at the start. They were firm in telling them what was appropriate and soon after all that rolling and noise turned into a couple of kids seated in their chairs chewing on food - not without noise of course, but well-behaved. 

I then queued behind these parents while waiting for my food and saw them heave a huge sigh as if they'd just finished fighting a battle. 😂

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I don't often think of motherhood because I'm single. No point thinking of something until there's a need to really. I used to want to be a mother and start a family when I was younger. I guess these thoughts crossed my mind well into adulthood too. However as I crossed the 28year mark, I started placing less priority on motherhood as a whole. Being single aside, my career means a lot to me too. I don't feel I'm anywhere near where I want to be where that's concerned and I know I won't be a very inspiring power woman who'll manage everything that's thrown to me. I have very little faith...

Anyway, I sat there at the table seated across my mother, and wondered what she'd say if I ever told her I may not want children. Disappointment perhaps, but I know she'll never force me to do something beyond her control. I've never been able to be controlled anyway lol. 

Guess that question will stay a big what if for now. Regardless, a big kudos to all mothers out there. Mothers being the generic term to represent all parents. You don't get as much credit for all that you do.

xx.